memory lane

this picture just scrolled through on my screensaver today, and i was completely amazed at how much garrett has grown up just in the last year. he looks so little here and i can't believe that he is getting so big. call me a big softy, but i don't want to lose these precious years that he is small and that he looks up to his daddy as a hero, who is big and strong and can beat other daddy's up. i just thought that i would take a stroll down memory lane and these pictures are just in the last year. how fast time flies by.

this is garrett eating breakfast when eric and his family came to visit and i still think that garrett looks so young. he has changed so much in the last few months.

this is garrett at a park in holland looking out over his kingdom. garrett is a rough little man and i'm always telling him to stop punching and kicking, but there is a part of me that wants him to keep that fight in him. you see his dad has lost a little of the fight in him, and partly because the society that we live in tells us to stop fighting that it is not good to teach our kids that. garrett, keep fighting and when you get older, you'll be able to beat up your old man, but i'll still love you the same then as i do now.

this is from the other night when he decided that he would be a super hero. he stood up and said, "power in the back." what an imagination. he just makes me smile all the time, even when he is doing something that he knows that he shouldn't be doing.
this is me using him as a human shield. i didn't want jess to take my picture and garrett had just hit the camera and broke it, but mommy got one last shot off. i know that i'm terrible for using him in his pain, but hey, when you don't want your picture taken, you don't want it taken.

garrett, there are going to be days that we fight and that we don't see eye to eye, it is starting to happen more and more as you get older. but i want you to know something. i love you now, and i'll always love you. there will be nothing that you do that will make me stop loving you. as i am writing this, i just got news that there is a teenager that is going into surgery as i write, and i have to say this now, i love you. i don't want you to go into emergency surgery not knowing that. i don't ever want there to be a time that you don't hear me say that. you may have just committed a terrible crime that you are going to be held responsible for, but i want you to know that i love you. you may have just hit your sister, but i want you to know that i love you. there are a lot of men out there that may think i'm a loser for posting this, but i know that a real man is able to say what he wants and i want you to know that i love you. i guess that's all there is to say.